I am a huge fan of memoirs, and particularly enjoy reading about people who have had really interesting lives! Marise Gaughan’s book is an excellent example of this. I love the title, which hints at the fact that the writer may have been in, or caused, a lot of trouble. The image also suggests the focus will be on the writer’s innermost thoughts and possibly their mental health.

Blurb:
Marise was nine when she first realised there was trouble, 14 when her Dad tried to end it all, and 23 when he finally succeeded.
In a turmoil of conflicting emotions Marise runs – from Dublin to Amsterdam to Los Angeles, leaving a trail of sex and self-destruction in her wake. Until finally, she finds herself facing what she’s become in a California psych ward, a girl imploding through trying to make sense of her father’s suicide.
As she retells her unravelling, from child to adult, Marise strips back her identity and her relationship with her father, layer by layer, until she finally starts to understand how to live with him, years after he has gone.
Written beautifully, with wit and unflinching honesty, Marise has produced one of the most powerful coming-of-age memoirs of recent years, a brave new voice in Irish writing.
My thoughts:
This was definitely a thought-provoking, powerful and gripping memoir. The first third of the book in particular I found engaging and nostalgic. Although I often think of Irish culture as different to what I experienced here in Wales, I was able to connect with some of her early teen references and experiences quite easily. I could easily relate to the teen who wanted to do well but let disruption at home spill into her attitude and school life.
Maurise explores familial relationships, identity and growth, mental health, alcoholism and suicide in a personal and emotional way. You really get to see how these impact her life and her mindset.
This was an insightful read where I feel like I have become intimate friends with the writer. Although I felt anger and sadness towards her dad, I think his role in her life was hugely influential and therefore I was engrossed in finding out what happened to him, as his journey was very tumultuous.
Overall, an emotional and page-turning memoir. This is an excellent read for fans of this genre as it is well-written and thought-provoking.
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